This series is a personal journey through my struggles with my mental health, and how it manifests itself physically in my day to day life. When I first began to exhibit symptoms, I had a hard time describing them to my family, friends and doctors. They were invisible barriers to me, keeping me from living normally, and because they were invisible I found I wasn't being taken seriously by medical professionals or even the people closest to me. It took nearly a year to be diagnosed with depression formally, and I was surprised with the diagnosis, as many of my experiences didn't seem to be mental, but rather physical in nature.

I had been experiencing migraines, nausea, fainting spells, a loss in libido, nutrient deficiency anemia, among others. At one point I was screened for leukemia, as all other tests had failed.

Upon diagnosis I began to realize just how traumatizing and physically debilitating a mental health issue can be. I had misunderstood the importance of mental health for years, until I became a victim of it.

I decided to create a series about my ongoing struggle, as a visual representation of what having crippling depression can really feel like. To start a complicated and important dialogue about how often mental and physical health, specifically in women, is often dismissed. 

And to document what it feels like to find yourself with a body and mind that consistently fail you.